April 26th, 2011

Tuesday noon!

Im 127 lbs, ahhh i lost 3lbs from yesterday!!! could be water weight, but this morning I had pizza from lean cuisine and 2 slices of my favorite pickle. yum yum.  :)

I got a call back from craigslist this morning from an unknown boutique in citadel, :/ and that kind of gets me excited.  I'm about to head out to send out resumes, but im not sure where to look first.  Cant decide from LA, or Southbay.

Ok... its decided.  Ill do Southbay today, and tomorrow, ill get up earlier for the hunt in LA.  I was kinda hoping to get calls from Urban outfitters/ Anthropology that I sent out a few days ago.  I really liked what they had to offer as far as position and location, it would of been perfect to get that job.  Maybe I should physically walk in and see if they have an opening.

Okie dokie, here i go, wish me luck!!! I need to find something good.

April 25th 2011

I'm not a good writer, this is my personal blog where i want to express my thoughts, and substitue a therapist.

so here i am, 25 years old, on april 25 2011.  no job, havent finished much or accomplished much in life.  Where has that firy eye girl has gone.  The passion for fashion, to become more successful than my father and meet my dream man to create a dream family.  Well, its not like i dont have anything.  I have a great man in my life, and hes so good to me. But to just have a great man without a professional title, I feel lost.  I want a label, i want to feel like im doing something.  I'v always wanted to be a women in power with management skills, great skills in fashion, people person, and doing what i love, so i can say yes, this is my title, and i love what i do!

I am 5'5 130lb and good looking, but i gained 20lbs while being with this man.  Its all my fault, i focused all my attention on all the wrong things.  I need to control my diet, i need to control myself and get back on track to the path i was once was on.  I love growth, and i love self gratification. I need to accomplish something to make myself feel like i won, im almost there.  I'm not content, I'm gaining my fire, and I'm getting myself back.  I'm still young, as they say, but still.  at my prime, i should have everything i dreamed of as a teenager.  All those dreams, all those hopes and wishes.

well, today, i went to the gym, worked off mearly 300 lbs, of tredmill, elyptical, and some dry sauna.

I'm home now, about to take a shower, clean the house, buy groceries, do laundry, send out resumes, and map out tomorrow's hunt for a job.

ugh... groceries.. how i hate making dinner.